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The joy of Essex

Forget Finchley, head east. Miranda Levy has gone back to her roots in Chigwell and she couldn't be happier.

January 22, 2020 16:34
Lesley Joseph as Dorian, the original Jewish Essex girl

ByMiranda Levy, Miranda Levy

4 min read

Three and a half years ago — after three decades in North London — I moved back to Essex, the county in which I was born. I was recovering from surgery and a marriage split; my father generously opened his home for me. So I packed up my books and paintings from beloved East Finchley, and returned to my childhood home in Chigwell, where I had last lived at the age of 18.

Grateful as I was to stay in a comfortable house in an affluent suburb, I didn’t broadcast my move. Sure, it was embarrassing to move back in with my Dad (even if temporarily) at the age of 48. But it was more than that. I had left home saying “beigel” and was back saying “bagel”. Ever-so-slightly ashamed of my Essex postcode, I told new acquaintances I still lived in London. Then, a few months ago, I started feeling ashamed of feeling ashamed.

What was my problem exactly?

I took time to reflect. You can’t completely generalise, but in some eyes (mainly peeping out from Hendon and Hampstead), the right hand loop of the Central Line has always been the “poor relation”. And I don’t think it’s just me. People from “there” hardly ever come “here”. The joke is that something odd has happened to the curvature of the earth, meaning that the journey North to East takes twice as long as the identical trip the other way. But, in my opinion, Essex Jews are sometimes just as culpable in playing along to this script, with responses ranging from a quiet sense of inferiority to defensive edginess about “North London” — homogenised as if it were one huge super-state, like the USSR.